One Word 2017

Ahhh, my word for this year.

It came to me while we driving to the Christmas tree farm. At the time it seemed logical. Necessary. Just… like a fresh breath. Like coming up for air. Like a big giant YES.

But as I sat with it, it got really scary. It felt really big. It felt like a step I wasn’t ready to take.

I completed my Powersheets and my word was all over the place.

But still I hesitated.

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I completed the shortened 2017 Goals with Soul process that Danielle LaPorte put out this year. And, again, my word was at the top of the list.

And still I hesitated.

I toyed with wayfinding (from this amazing podcast that Tina pointed me to). And I tried on coddiwomple. But they just weren’t it.

So here we are. A week into 2017. And I’m ready to tell you.

My word for 2017 is unfurl.

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It comes from a prayer from the Desire Map.

I accept my calling: to show up and shine, unfurled and honest.

As I typed that line just now, my friends, I got tears in my eyes. 

My calling isn’t a certain achievement. It isn’t a number or a pose or a job. My calling is to show up.

To UNFURL.

Let's do this, 2017.

A Little Leaf Meditation

This meditation is one of my favorite meditations. During this little 10-minute invitation, I'll encourage you to go a little deeper into your body and your thoughts. And I'll teach you a way to start to let things go. Our minds are made to think, our bodies are made to have sensations. But, just for this time, I will invite you to notice and release all of these things we notice. And just become still and peaceful.  

You may notice my cat causing tripod earthquakes. And you may notice that I am incredibly awkward when I'm being still and silent. But hopefully you won't notice either because hopefully you'll have your eyes closed! 

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Are there pieces of your life that you want to shift? Do you desire self-care and self-affirming rituals? Do you need to feel less pressure to be someone different and just really step into your life? Are you ready to really feel like you and your body are on the same team and on the path to awesomeness and ease?

Let me help.

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Maybe more isn't the answer

Some of you (maybe even most of you), know what it is like to start getting older. 

I've noticed in the last few months. Especially in my face. I can deal with my skin seeming a little looser. I'm even okay with my constant need for lip moisturizer. But I felt like just as I was truly getting comfortable with wearing absolute minimal makeup (a smidge of bronzer on my cheeks and mascara), my skin started to rebel.

My cheeks were so red. I looked flushed all the time. After about a year of not wearing makeup and getting comfortable with it, I was suddenly uncomfortable again. Not because there was anything wrong with the redness, but because the face looking back at me wasn't the one I had adjusted too. It was just different - different enough to make me aware.

I spent my holiday bonus from work (a $50 Amazon gift card!) trying to find the answer. I bought masks and peels and washes. I read reviews and looked at all the screenshots I've taken of things Jessamyn and Dana have talked about. I went back through my text chain with the FatCamp Braintrust. And, just a few days ago, a box of face products (and two books) arrived at my door. 

I got busy. I haven't used any of them. But I did have a few dollars left at Lush after buying my necessity. So I bought a $10 bar of my old face soap. You know, that soap I used for years until about 6 months ago when I couldn't justify the expense and I didn't trust myself to go to the mall.

I used the soap this morning. One day. And I can tell a difference. My face didn't like the face soap from Trader Joe's. But it likes Lush.

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I'm sure I'll use all of the masks I bought. But I'll use them as a treat instead of looking for a solution to a problem.

This got me thinking about the New Year. About how maybe new/more/different isn't the answer. Maybe the simple solutions are right in front of me. Maybe I can just worry less and just be kind to myself. Maybe it isn't about clay masks or peels in an egg. Maybe it is just about a bar of gentle pink soap. 

I have two actual resolutions this year. 

1. I will do less anxiety math. This is a very simple solution for me. When I get anxious? I open up the calculator on my desktop computer. Let's see exactly how much money we'll have left over after we pay the bills, spend our average on groceries and gas. Then let's go 2 weeks out. And then 4! Let's do the math and see how it will shake out if I lose a client (or two). Okay. Then I start to panic. Okay, now what if I do that yoga series I'm thinking about. How much would I need to charge and how many people if I needed to make up for losing 2 clients? (WHICH I HAVEN'T LOST!) See? This spiral is insane. And it can go on for hours. And it is incredibly counterproductive. So in 2017? Less anxiety math. I am committing to not worrying about finances more than a month out (I didn't say not planning or being responsible, I said not worrying). I'm not going to obsess over PTO time or hours I spend doing offerings or all of those things that I project and never turn out exactly as I figured or don't really matter because I can figure out how to juggle it anyway. Less anxiety math.

2. I will finally get a tattoo. I think I have picked out my first one. Simple. Clean, thin lines. Super representative of my last few years. I want a super detailed hamsa one day, but I don't think that's where I should probably start. 

Kindness. Not looking to fill with more. A bar of pink soap. Less math. And a flower on my foot. 

Let's do this, 2017.

the Desire Map and my Body.

I'm not being paid for this in any way, just so you know. My links are not affiliate links. I just think Danielle Laporte is just the sh!t. And my spirit animal. And my Patronus. 

I have worked through The Desire Map about a dozen times. And every time, I think the same things.

I already know of all of this. I'm not going to learn anything new about myself.

I already have my Core Desired Feelings. 

I already know how this works. It is too predictable and I'm going to get stuck.

And then BAM. She gets in my head and I get out of my head and magic happens.

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I have so much swimming in my head right now that I wanted the process, but working through the actual book seemed like too much. I got the email for the 2017 Goals with Soul package and I was like "yup, that's for me." I sat down with my phone, my headphones, a few pens, and my bullet journal. And, after a few lunch breaks, I had 2017 all figured out.

But what struck me more than figuring out the direction for 2017 was the radical shift in how I feel about my body.

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One of the exercises in this process is looking at where you are dissatisfied with different areas of your life. I rocked through most of the categories, seeing so much opportunity for big change and little tweaks. I was able to see where things fit together and where positive change here could impact positive change there. And how neglecting my spirituality was impacting my lifestyle. All of the bells were going off. In unison. It was a little amazing.

But then? Body and Wellness. And I was stuck. Honestly. Where am I dissatisfied? What do I want to change? I came to a full stop. I sat back in my chair. 

Zilch. Zip. Zero. Nada.

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If I had decided to make New Year's Resolutions, they probably would have all been in this category. I would have said that I wanted to run a half marathon again. Or maybe master a yoga pose. Or maybe be vegan for a month or hit 10K steps every day or take my lunch every day or be more disciplined with my self-care routine. 

But nope. I am not dissatisfied with my body or my wellness right now. I initially thought that maybe it is because I have more pressing concerns, maybe I am in denial.

But the truth? I am in a good place.

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I practice yoga every day. I eat (mostly) intuitively. I walk a few miles most days. I take my vitamins most days. I drink a lot of water most days. I do a lot of *mosts.* And that is enough. That is PLENTY. And I am satisfied.

I know this probably sounds like I'm bragging. Like I'm saying, "SEE! LOOK WHAT I DID!" But that's not the case at all. What I'm saying is that I assumed I was dissatisfied. I assumed I was frustrated. I assumed I wanted more.

When the reality is that I AM OKAY. I am PLENTY.

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Where are you making assumptions? Where are you assuming that you are unhappy or unsatisfied? Where could you really just be OKAY or even PLENTY and just. It know it yet? 

When you start to tear yourself down, ask

What do I think I am I missing here?

How would this really change my life?

How important is this REALLY?

Is this true or just a leftover thought?

Can you allow yourself to see your okayness? Can you allow yourself to back out of empty struggle? Can you stop being dissatisfied just out of habit?

Are you willing to try?

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feet to take me where I want to stand

I've been swimming in wants. Things I think I need. I need to contact a graphic designer friend to see if she'll design a logo for my coaching business. I need to design and order business cards. I need to pay my liability insurance. I need to finish and launch my website. I need to see if there is any way we can (financially and time-wise) swing the first semester of Life Coaching classes starting next month. I need to plan the LexRunLadies birthday party (and draw up the waiver and order membership cards of some sort). Oh, and then there's my own 35th birthday party to plan. I need to buckle down the budget so we can actually move to Asheville one day. I need. I need. I need.

But Friday night, we went to a party/fundraiser for our friends at Rideout Photography. And sitting there on the patio of our hangout with our friends (and a basket of food from the Taco Truck), I realized something.

Everything will happen at its own pace. I have no deadlines that aren't self-imposed. I have no reason to rush anything. I have everything that I need. Nathan. Family. Friends. Running shoes. Food on my plate.

(I lifted your pic of us, AshleyGee.)

I enjoy where my life is and where it is going. And I'm going to slow down and take the time to enjoy it.

Amen.