I don't know how to feel.

Today is the first day in a few weeks that I am writing a blogpost the day it goes up. I have gotten so out of the practice of pushing publish immediately after I finish writing.

But today is a special day.


Today is my last day at work. Today is the last day that I have a nice, fluffy income. Today is the last day that I put on reasonable clothes and ride an elevator up into an office building.

And I don't know how to feel. I mean, I feel like I should feel one way, but I feel distinctly another.

I look at the truth of the matter, and I tell myself that I should feel sad. Maybe even afraid. Definitely bitter and and a sense of dread. But instead? Friends. Liberation. Excitement. Complete certainty that my job ran its course and that it is time for me to move on.

I have job possibilities - exciting, just-right-for-me job possibilities - but they would come with a significant pay cut. But they would also come with less stress and more joy and would really use the strengths that I have built over the last few years. I would work for people that I know and in industries that I both enjoy and support with all of my heart.

And they would come with a significant pay cut.

Honestly, though? I don't care. I don't care.

I don't think I'm being naive. I don't think I'm unrealistic. I just think that I will find joy using from using my talents and won't self-medicate with expensive beauty items and fancy purses. I will go to work (or work from home), do things I love, and teach lots and lots of yoga. How can I go wrong with that?

Even if that means that we don't eat out as often or don't have that bottle of wine or my yoga pants don't come from Lululemon or my shampoo comes from Trader Joe's instead of Lush or I keep carrying my purse once I'm bored with it.

The sun is up. Many of you have a lovely yoga practice in your email. I will take down the pictures and race bibs in my cube. I will sign my separation agreement. I will teach yoga. I will go to a Irish Dance party. 

Today is beautiful.

My future is full of writing and photography and yoga.

Tomorrow - so many tomorrows - will be beautiful as well.

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