Part of what has been so frustrating with losing my job is that I know what I am meant to do. I know what I will do. And I have a pretty strong feeling about where I should do it. Now just isn't the time.
I feel an incredible pull to the Distillery District. It is a feeling that I just can't explain. I felt a pull here when I first saw the plans on the internet years ago. I loved the thought of the revitalization that could go on here. And I love what I am seeing so far.
And once we visited a few weeks ago, I know I need to be here. The progress is a few years behind initial schedule, but it is happening. This article from August mentions several business who were in progress that we actually visited last weekend. A brewery, a distillery, and a bar are alive and well. A fancy restaurant, an ice cream shop, and a coffee bar are in the works. (Iced coffee on Nitro is AMAZING.) Things are happening there, friends. They are just behind schedule.
But their "behind schedule" works well for mine. I want a yoga studio here. I will have a yoga studio here. However, the place where I am heart-set on just isn't built yet. It just isn't here. And I don't have the financial resources I would need to build-out on an existing building. I cannot imagine the amount of work that would need to be done. And that doesn't sound like a process I would handle well AT ALL.
I have this fear that I'm perceived as doubting myself. Because I'm looking for another full-time job once mine ends. Because I'm not throwing myself 100% into making my coaching and yoga my life-sustaining income. I don't want to look for space. I don't want to rush things. Not because I'm afraid, but because things physically aren't ready.
I know that I don't have to feel like I have to pay my dues. And I want to be clear that isn't what this is. Yes, I do feel like I need experience teaching before I can open a studio. Yes, I want to have money saved so that I can make the space exactly how I want it. But in the meantime? I'm more than content to do a super clean and paint our garage and hold warm-weather classes there. Because my pull to the Distillery District is just so, so strong.
And I'm not going to force something else to happen right now. I'm just not. And I'm not going to sacrifice what I really want just to have something right now. I'm going to be open to everything that is in my path - full-time jobs, classes to teach, speaking opportunities - and I'm going to bust my ass. That's just who I am and that isn't changing. I'm not going to try to make a different fate when I feel so strongly that I am meant to have a yoga studio here, in a development that hasn't been built yet.
I will have a yoga studio here, friends. It will happen. In a few years. When the building is available. When we can live and work there. When the time is right and things work out.
And my sweet friend Retta will have an art studio next door.
I have officially put it out into the universe. And I do not doubt that it will happen.
But not yet.
My workshop at the library is TOMORROW! (eeeeeek!) If you are Lexington local, you should totally come! The workshop is free, but registration is required.
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