In the past, I have done huge things for Lent. No spend. No meat. No caffeine. I have always thought I need to go big.
But this year? I just wasn't in that sort of place. My mind is too muddled. I am losing my job. I am trying to build my coaching business. I am studying for my yoga exam and planning my final project. There is so much swimming in my head that another commitment just wasn't possible.
The only commitment I could make was to consistently give my best effort, and be completely unattached to the outcome. And I did. And it was incredibly liberating.
And I am able to use present tense instead of past here because I don't expect any of this to change.
I followed my posting and newsletter schedule because I want to be disciplined. But I didn't allow myself to be obsessed with page views or opens or clicks. I just followed my schedule because it was there.
I put my best effort into my health as well. Some days, that meant veggies at all three meals, a walk, and a sweaty yoga session. And other days, it meant a cookie dough concrete from Culvers (it lasted 2 days) and hours of Grey's from the DVR. And over a month later? My clothes still fit just fine. My blood pressure is under control. I can still rock downward dog.
I also really like stuff, friends. I do. Bags and little bags that go inside of bags. And makeup and fingernail polish. And just stuff. But I also put my best effort into money. Not no spend, but conscious. I needed a lightweight grey cardigan. So I bargained shopped and found one for $12. And I bought it, while resisting my urge to also buy it in navy and cream because it was a good deal. I needed foundation, and I bought foundation but not the eyeshadow or the hairspray that I fondled. (But my points reward was a little bag!!)
Somewhere deep down, I knew what I could realistically handle. I set realistic expectations that were inspiring and really kept me on track. I am super proud that I made a commitment that would take effort, but was still super achievable.
I don't see any of this changing. I don't see myself going back to allowing lazy to come back. I see myself giving permission to rest and giving a kick towards productivity whenever each is needed.
I really enjoyed Lent this year. And I wish you a happy and peaceful Easter.
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