I had a massage while I was in Nashville. It was an incredibly beautiful painful experience.
"You hold all of your tension in your shoulders, don't you?"
"You clench your jaw, don't you?"
As I made my long commute the other day, the rain made me nervous. It was the fastest-setting-on-wipers-is-barely-enough sort of rain.
I caught myself in my default setting. Shoulders up by my ears. Teeth clenched. Unclench, Krissie. Relax.
I'm aware. And I'm trying.
But I want to know. I want to plan. I want all of these numbers to just stop swirling around in my head. I want to just be.
I'm aware and I'm trying.
as I drop my shoulders. Again.