My goal for September was to meditate every day. I used the Headspace app to direct me and track my progress. The good news is that I actually made 32 days instead of just 30.
I am still really unsure of what meditation does for me. I mean, I know I like it and I know it was a nice practice to get into. I was pretty disappointed when I broke my streak on Saturday, but that's what happens when you really need to catch up on sleep.
What I do know is that I am finding myself being more responsive in the moment. I am realizing that I do a decent job of staying present in my body and noticing what I need. But I don't always respond. Or sometimes I respond too quickly and don't pay enough attention to the sensations.
So on the unresponsive side, I often notice that I am thirsty. Or that I need to pee. Or that I would like some chap stick. But I'm not always quick to respond. I'll sit at my desk for another half hour instead of filling my empty cup. I'll get lost in other things. But I'm really making an effort to respond to my needs as I notice them. And trying to keep chap stick within arm's reach because my lips are a disaster.
But on the other end, I'm trying to notice physical feelings that aren't necessarily negative and see what happens when I sit with them. When I left yoga the other night, it was POURING. Three trips to the car and I was pretty soaked. My gut was to automatically wipe myself off, but then I realized that these raindrops on my arm were kinda sparkly and fun. And it actually felt kinda good to get wet considering how humid it had been. I wasn't uncomfortable even though I assumed I would be. So I turned the music up a little and drove home a little drenched.
I'm noticing more. I'm being more physically present. And I'm letting this information impact how I respond. So I guess that's something, right?
My meditation goal for October is 20 days. This month is a little crazy at work, so I'm giving myself a little room.
Are you focusing on anything in particular in October?