reverb14 // day 1 // background

I am participating in Reverb14 again this year. I am making a commitment to respond - in some way - to each of the 21 prompts. They may not be daily for 21 days. They may be in clumps. They may be here or in my journal or on my Instagrams. But I will respond. Because I think reflection is important. And because I feel like 2014 has been a big year. And I want to make sure it gets the respect it deserves.

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#Reverb14 | Prompt for December 1

At the start | Where did you start 2014?  Give us some background on this year.

I thought 2014 would be the year of big things. The year I'd lose weight, figure out a system to keep a clean house, and be on the verge of self-employment. 2014 was going to be my year.

I have done none of those things. My weight is within a pound of where I was on January 1, 2014. My house is full of piles. I am too joyfully engaged in yoga school and my clients to even begin to think about a real-job exit strategy.

And I have never been happier.

I may not have lost any weight, but I will hopefully be coming off of my blood pressure medication in March (she wanted to take me off last month, but I want some maintenance time) because I am healthier. I am paying attention to my salt intake. I'm taking a few different supplements. I'm doing yoga regularly. I may not look any different on the outside, but different things are going on in there.

My house isn't usually ready for company, but it functions. The bathrooms and kitchen are typically clean. We just have stuff everywhere because we are constantly moving around the house. We want to be in the same room working on our things. Or I'm working in the multi-purpose room and he needs it to dance in. My yoga gear is propped up in the corner of the living room because I like to do yoga here and seeing my gear frequently reminds me to roll it out. All of this is okay.

I am trusting that I will figure out my career when it needs to be figured out. Right now, my real job suits me. I don't think I'll be here forever, but I'm in no rush to get out. None at all. I have time and energy when I leave work. So this coaching stuff? It is a hobby. I'm making a little play money from a HOBBY. That's pretty darn fantastic. And it keeps the work from having any pressure. Will there come a time when I can make it work? I hope so. But I'm not going to rush it.

I didn't accomplish anything I wanted for this year except truly trying to embody my word: assured. That I can figure things out. That I am enough. That God takes care of me. And that my gut is trustworthy.