I have been struggling. Physically. And I think my connection with my body - through yoga - is presenting a challenge.
Here's what yoga has taught me: When it comes to moving my body, I can figure out how to fix discomfort.
I can bend my knees a little more or a little less.
I can bring my feet closer together or farther apart.
I can take a child's pose.
I can push a little harder or back off a little more.
Physically, I can figure things out.
But this week, I haven't been able to fix me.
I have had a headache. A headache that isn't like anything I can identify. Severity has varied from 3 to 8, but I have had a constant headache. And I can't figure it out. Is it allergies? Is it a migraine presenting differently? Is it blood pressure? Is it hormones?
I don't know.
And, more than the headache itself, I'm finding myself irritated that I can't figure out what is going on so I can't figure out how to fix it.
A few months ago? I would have just taken 2 Aleve and it would have been done. I wouldn't have given it a second thought. I would have just treated the headache and moved on.
But today, this connection that I feel with my body makes me want to figure out the cause and fix it. But now I'm dissecting it. I'm dissecting my symptoms, how I'm moving, and what I'm drinking and eating. I'm drinking a variety of teas. I'm keeping a pretty detailed journal. I'm trying to figure it out.
I don't want to fix the symptom. I want to fix what is wrong.
Today, though, I finally took those 2 Aleve, and I feel seriously better. Almost normal even.
And, based on the calendar? There's a good possibility this is hormones. The healthier I get, the more pronounced PMS symptoms get. I know this, I just forget it often.
I need to find a tea for that.