fear

I just wanted to let you all know that I'm scared. I know I should listen to myself. I know I should trust my training.

But I'm a nervous wreck.

I am running a marathon in 5 weeks or so. I'm not sure of the exact number because I don't want to know. All I know is that I'm nervous.

I know I'm not as trained up as I was this far out from the marathon I stopped training for when I hurt my foot last fall.

I know I'll be running alone and that isn't my strength. At all.

I know I've finished a marathon before, but the heat got to us. I feel like I never really hit the wall because we were walking at 19 due to heat instead of exhaustion.

I just don't feel ready.

I'm going to do it, but I don't feel ready.

That's all.