I have been feeling overwhelmed. Stomach virus.
Scary coaching exam.
Fear about not moving fast enough.
Fear about moving too fast.
Almost to the point of being immobile. I was over analyzing everything - exam questions, twitter exchanges, emails. I was letting things slide - emails I needed to return, calls I needed to make, confrontations I needed to have.
I was scared. So I hid. I did nothing. I kept moving things from one day to the next in my calendar. I did nothing.
This weekend wasn't a lot better. My stomach issues prevented me from running long. I just kept pushing things. I watched a lot of tv. I slept a lot.
But things got better. I had coffee with my girls yesterday and then trained a group of first time 5K-ers-to-be. I worked on my exam a little. I started checking things off.
And then things really picked up today. Nathan told me that I was overthinking things. I finally just started checking things off.
Nathan and I sat at a coffee shop and I finished my coaching exam, and I passed. I sent emails, and I got emails back with what I needed. I did a few things that are way outside of my current comfort zone. Once I marked a few things off, it just started to snowball. And in a few minutes? I have my first phone coaching appointment.
I don't know what I was so afraid of.
But it is important to me to admit to you that I was afraid.
But everything is mostly okay now.
And I'll probably be afraid again.
And I'll come out just fine then too.